I had a very nice phone call from Colleen last night. I was half an hour late for FAT Jazz rehearsal, but it’s all right. She said some very nice things, with which I will not bore anyone, but I will say this:
I would have given up a LOOoooonnnnnnggggg time ago if not for all of these marvellous friends who critique and edit for me and keep saying, “Well done.” I haven’t even got where I want to be yet, but I know I wouldn’t have come this far without all of you: Rob (who started this whole thing), Myst, Tom, Stuart, Kathy, Colleen and LOTS of others, not to mention my family who put up with me. See, here’s the thing. I strongly believe that if I ever gave up and said, “I’ve had enough of this! I’ve had it with rejection, with hearing, ‘this just doesn’t do it for me,’ or ‘the writing is good, but…’, I can’t take it anymore!” If I ever said that? There would be so very many people who would KICK MY ASS.
So quitting isn’t an option, coz that would hurt a lot.
And if I do take criticism well, it’s because… well, a lot of things, really. 1) I learned years ago that being arrogant about my work (any kind of work) isn’t good for anyone, least of all myself. 2) I want my work to be the best it can be, so I need to listen to others. 3) My friends want me to succeed as much as I do, and they wouldn’t steer me wrong. 4) I’m tired of messing around with this, and I’m ready to do what I have to do! It’s still not easy to take, and some days I don’t do so well (such as last Sunday when Colleen managed to talk me down off the ledge… again), but I know in the end I have a better product than I had before.
I’m looking forward to having Tom and Myst, and some others as well, read Dark Elf’s Warrior in its new incarnation because they’re the ones who read the first version. They will see an enormous transformation.
I’ll just keep plugging away til I get where I want to be, and thank you all.